Fear of What?

I find it somewhat amusing how we try to hide things that we think are "secrets". There are some things that we can keep to ourselves and no one ever know, but it's likely it will eat away at us and someone will know that there is something underlying. They just won't know specifics. But most of the other things in our lives that we try to hide, someone already knows anyway. And people like to talk. So, it's highly likely that several, if not many, people know. This is where I find amusement. We have ourselves so worked up about keeping things "hush hush" in fear of our reputation being dismantled. We miss out on experiencing true freedom at the cost of appeasing our insecurities.
I have talked with a few people over the past 6 months that are trustworthy and loving people. I want to know what they know about me. So, I have asked very specific questions about what they know of my past.  They each have had the same answer and each answer has been dead on. They know specifics that I had hoped they wouldn't. The craziest parts about this is that they have each known for a couple years and THEY STILL LOVE ME AND EVERYONE ELSE INVOLVED! I have harbored so much resentment and built up so much pride and tried to keep so many secrets and avoid certain conversations but there has been no sense in it. Forgiveness, love and grace have been present this whole time and I have completely missed it because of fear.

I feel very blessed to be experiencing freedom the way it is suppose to be experienced. I still have many moments of insecurity and fear and it overwhelms me and I hide from anything and everything hoping that I am looked over. By no means have I arrived where I need to be. But I am so thankful for the love and support that I have had all along this journey, even though I was unaware of it at the time. I'm thankful for honesty and tough love. I'm thankful for tears and repentance. I'm also very thankful for times to share love with others and understanding more of the depth of love that people crave. Knowing how desperate a person can be for love that goes beyond their wrongs helps me find ways to give what people are looking for. Who shall we fear and why? It's time to move forward.