I have so much potential lying inside of me but here I stay, stuck here with this "good for nothing" feeling. It's breaks me down so often. I need somewhere and something to put my time and effort into. I need to make more of myself than this lame, can't work, always in pain, zombie I've become. No wonder I deal with this depression the way that I have. I need to put myself out there and put my life into other's lives. I miss that. Not that I need my life to be consumed with something but I do need something productive to place my heart and life into.
I think I'm going to finish this post and send an email to Asheville Crisis Pregnancy Center. I have been meaning to do that for the past couple of months but I have failed to do so. I don't know what is waiting for me there but I have this unexplainable draw to that place. Something is definitely waiting for me there. I need to jump in and see what it is and get this feeling of worthlessness behind me. It bogs me down tremendously and I need to kick it.