Galatians 4:9
This scripture makes me sit back and think quite a lot.
I still struggle a lot with my past and there are always thoughts of what I've done and how I hate some things that I've done and how I miss the rebellious parts sometimes and how I miss the attractions within the addictions. Some of it seems rather stupid. I feel like an idiot for missing some of it but I guess that's just human nature and I'm just being honest.
Now that God has gotten my attention and and pulled my attention back to reality, I look at this verse and ask myself several questions. Why would I accept God's grace and mercy and then throw it all back in His face as if I were ungrateful for it? Why would I take the lessons that I've learned and grown from and put it all in reverse and fall back into all that crap and be a slave to lust and pleasure and sin and depression? Why would I do that? It wouldn't make any sense.
1 Well then, should we keep on sinning so that God can show us more and more of his wonderful grace? 2 Of course not! Since we have died to sin, how can we continue to live in it?
Romans 6:1-2
God has brought me through a lot and from a lot. I thank Him every day for where He has has me compared to where I've been. I'm thankful that He didn't decide to be done with me even though I mocked Him time after time. Yes, it was I that put those spikes in his hands and feet and held him to the cross. I'm also the one that spit in his face and laughed at His scorning. It puts me in tears to think of it that way but it's the truth. Sometimes the truth hurts. More truth...sometimes I consider spitting in His precious face again. Sometimes I consider adding slashes onto His back. Sometimes I consider laughing once again in the midst of His agony. We all do. What are we thinking? What am I thinking?! Of course I don't literally mean that I would hit Him or literally spit in His face or laugh at his suffering but that's the concept of what happens each time I miss my regretful past. Those are the things that would happen if I went through with the things that cross my mind when I consider jumping back into the lusts and pleasures that my skin longs for.
12 Do not let sin control the way you live;[a] do not give in to sinful desires. 13 Do not let any part of your body become an instrument of evil to serve sin. Instead, give yourselves completely to God, for you were dead, but now you have new life. So use your whole body as an instrument to do what is right for the glory of God. 14 Sin is no longer your master, for you no longer live under the requirements of the law. Instead, you live under the freedom of God’s grace.
Roman's 6:12-14
I don't want to be ungrateful of what my Lord has done for me and I sure don't want to make light of the things He's taken me out of and placed me into. He is good and He is worthy of my best. I don't feel like giving my best all the time but He most certainly always gives His best. He love us. He loves me.
15 Well then, since God’s grace has set us free from the law, does that mean we can go on sinning? Of course not! 16 Don’t you realize that you become the slave of whatever you choose to obey? You can be a slave to sin, which leads to death, or you can choose to obey God, which leads to righteous living. 17 Thank God! Once you were slaves of sin, but now you wholeheartedly obey this teaching we have given you. 18 Now you are free from your slavery to sin, and you have become slaves to righteous living.
Romans 6:15-18
