I feel so frustrated with school. I know God has a plan for my education and for my life. He wouldn't allow me to have an all expense paid education without having a specific plan for it. I want to be prudent with everything involved. I don't want to waste any of it. It leaves me so confused though. I've had to drop 3 of the 4 classes I registered for this semester in order to take care of my family. That's my first priority as a wife and mother anyway. So it's ok. Just some other things that have come up in the past week leave me baffled and unsure of what to do. I feel like I'm in the searching stage again. That's a tough place to be. I nearly despise the searching stage. I don't want to settle for something that is less than God's best for me. I have done that many times through my life and I don't want to settle with my education. I want to be precise and do what benefits my family and future best.