I believe that God can frustrate a persons plans in order to accomplish the best for that person. I feel like he's frustrating my plans and making me back up and reevaluate. My kids have had what seems like a never ending streak of bad health. I have missed nearly 2 full weeks of school and will miss more in the upcoming weeks because of doctors appointment. Since Makenna started having her stomach trouble, we have been constantly back and forth to different doctors and hospitals trying to get all that straightened out. Now that we know she has celiac disease, we have been able to change her diet and she has been a lot healthier since. The problem with celiacs is that it is genetic so it's likely that one, if not both, of the boys have it. So we will be getting them both checked in the next week or two. Makenna had tubes put in her ears last week and it has made such a huge difference in her hearing and even her rest. Hayden has had three back to back ear infections so tubes are in his very near future. He has a consult next week, the day after his 9 month checkup. So that's two doctors office visits next week. He had Rocephin shots this week because there were no other antibiotics to try to clear up his infection. It was rough. Antibiotic shots are tough on the body because it's a high dose straight into the blood stream. But you have to have more than one... So, he had one Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday. That's hard on a mother to take her baby in three days in a row to have such a tough shot. But I believe it's helping him feel better. He didn't sleep good AT ALL because of it for those three nights but he's hopefully getting better.

With all that said, I can't continue with such a full load of classes right now. It's impossible. My family comes first. And I think God has some other things for me right now if I will open up my time to him. Nate interviewed for a position as youth pastor at a church this week. Next week I will go with him to another interview. I think it's definitely time that we get back into ministry together. It's been a long time...and I've established some necessary boundaries for myself and have some incredible accountability. It's time. It just is. I'm hoping that this works out. It will be a good change for us.

Along with getting back into ministry, I have been asked to be a partner in Charis Ministries which is a women's ministry that's local and I'm really looking forward to it. I know there will be a lot of good things happen through it and I'm really looking forward to being used. I have the opportunity to share my story based on the topic "Fear of Coming Clean" and will have many other opportunities to share and lead and discuss and help other women. It's going to be a wonderful opportunity. So I definitely need to take a step back and see what God is wanting with my time and make myself more available but keep my family first and be able to make all these appointments with my kids and be sure they know I'm their number 1 support!