I'm not really sure how I get to the point of having a friendship close enough with anyone for them to tell me that they have my back. Those are big words to me. If someone is going to say that though, I would appreciate some follow through. I got close enough again to get hurt very badly. I guess making yourself vulnerable is exactly how it sounds. It makes me not want to do that ever again. People like that make me want to scream. I may........
Maybe what makes it hardest is when it's someone you do ministry with. Perhaps that's why I'm a bit tainted and ready to move on and want to see REAL people.