Sha-Bam

I've figured it out! 

Bicycling is going to be my answer to fitness. I went about a mile a couple days ago and I went a mile and a half today and it wasn't that bad. These hills can get kind of tough but that's the joy of it. Up hill when I leave the house...down hill the last half mile back. I like that. It doesn't hurt my neck but it's an amazing lower body workout. My legs and butt will kill before long. Mwaahahahaha.
As far as upper body, I'm still working on figuring that part out. Abs? Ab Lounge!!! Got it at Habitat for Humanity for $15. Heck to the yeyah.
Maybe now I can shed this 20 lbs that I've put on since last summer and maybe I'll be able to fit back into a couple pair of jeans that aren't my friends right now :'(
I'm excited to have a good cardio program now as well as some good muscle building and toning.

It's time to say goodbye to my career as a firefighter. I worked my last day Thurday and I will no longer be employed by the Town of Weaverville after May 13th. Am I sad? Yes I am. I worked very hard to get where I was. I put a lot of sweat and even blood into getting there. I can't help that I have an injury. I worked very hard to try to improve but this is as good as it gets. Maybe I will improve as time passes. The doctor told me that's a possibility but there's no way to know for sure how long it could take or if it will even happen. Time will tell.
I have a meeting and orientation with vocational rehab this coming week and I will be given a guidance counselor and they will help me figure out what career would be best for me. I feel like it's my senior year of high school again with all the pressures of trying to decide what I want to do with my life. The difference is that I knew what I wanted to do then and I went for it. Now my options are a little more limited but I know my education will be paid for so that takes a lot of stress off of me.
I have a few things I would like to go to school for but it's hard to come out of a career knowing I will never be able to go back into it and now pick a new one. I'm 25 years old, I'm married and have 2 kids, 1 of which starts kindergarten in 3 months and here I am trying to figure out what to do with the rest of my life. It's not easy. I'm excited about going back to school though. I really want to jump in with all I have and do the best I can and make the most of this opportunity and enjoy it.

To quote Forrest Gump, "Stupid is, stupid does."
I can relate rather well.
To go along with that I would have to say "Fickle is, fickle does."
Sometimes we attract people to us that are the same as us. I know I get on my own nerves more often than not so it would only make sense that I attract people with the same personalities and character traits as myself. I know that my friends are going to get on my nerves the same way I get on my own nerves. If they're fickle, chances are I'm fickle too. If they do things I can't stand, more than likely I do things they can't stand as well. I'm sure this applies to everyone that lives and breathes. I guess the irony is that "normal" is frustrating and that love is a choice. If you love someone and choose to keep them in your life it's because you choose to love the things that are easy to love about them and you work through the things that irritate the crap out of you. The people that love you make the same choice, if they are still around. Choose your battles wisely and love as you want to have love given to you. Maybe, just maybe, if you begin giving the love and kindness you wish to have for yourself, you will then begin to be blessed just the same.

Sometimes I wonder. Sometimes I just wonder.

Alright it's time to find a good way that I can work out and keep my neck from hurting. I finally found a way to do upper body excercises but it isn't enough to keep me in shape. I've gained more weight than I want to admit since I've been off of full duty at the fire department. In 1 month it will be a year since my injury and it's been nearly that long since I've had a good work out. I refuse to buy new clothes and I also refuse to continue to look the way I do in some of the clothes I have. It's seriously time to find a way to work out and not have migraines from it. Let the exploring begin...

Time has gone by so quickly and my little boy is growing up so fast. Tonight we have Parent Orientation at NB Elementary and this will be the beginning to a long, exciting journey. I canlt believe it's time for him to start kindergarten but I really think he's ready to jump in and learn and make friends. It's very likey that he will be the class clown... He's such a goofball and loves to make people laugh. I'm curious to see what kind of people he chooses as friends and the personalities that he will click with and the ones he won't click with. I'm excited to see the areas of learning that he does well in and curious to see which ones he stuggles in. There's so many new things that are ahead of us and I'm just excited.

I love that Makenna and I are finally beginning to have a special bond that mother and daughter should have.  Her and I had a rough start because of my post partum depression and she had bad colic and was always fussy. Her and I just didn't get off to a good start. What makes me happy is that she's been clinging to me, in a good way. and being different towards me and loving on me and asking to do things with just me. She loves helping me get my Mary Kay things together when an order in and she wants to play babydolls with ME and wants to snuggle with ME at nap time and bed time. I'm so happy she's finally taking to me and wanting me and not always being grumpy. I love my baby girl!